by Megan M. on September 4, 2009 · View Comments (Blog) |

I am completely high off this morning’s rehearsal.

I met with Alan Thomas, who is the wonderful competition accompanist, and we worked out the bits and pieces and tempos and so forth for my two pieces. I’m competing in the David G. Morris competition (lots of Morrises running around these Welsh festivals!), which happens (I believe!) at 2:30pm ET tomorrow afternoon. I knew it would be a great rehearsal—I remember singing with Alan four years ago, at the same festival in Orlando—but wow, once we had the tempos right, those songs were like crack. I could have sung another hour or two. It was absolutely, stunningly glorious.

At a late breakfast with David Williams I gushed about how enjoyable it was to sing in that room, o-ho, I can’t wait for tomorrow. There’s a more poignant point here though, I think, and it has something to do with how easy it is to forget how happy this makes me. I don’t get a lot of singing in these days—mostly because singing takes money. It costs money to study, to compete, to perform. Money for clothes, music, etc. Money to ensure downtime before a competition or performance, certainly. Since the money I make from various business pursuits, right now, goes to paying the usual sorts of bills, I haven’t been doing much more than studying and preparing for the occasional competition. (For a little perspective, consider that this statement includes this competition, the same festival four years ago, and the National Eisteddfod in Swansea, 2006!)

But I love this. Nothing is so wonderful as being at the end, knowing the music, knowing I can do it, standing in front of the room and filling it with sound (and even better, the exchange of energy when I have an actual audience)—but that’s worth so much. Maybe it’s worth every pain in the ass I’ve endured to get here. Maybe it always will be.

What does that mean for my life, as it is right now? Well, it probably means that any doubts I’ve had about the validity of finding a musical source of income are unfounded. It means that there is a significant part of myself that’s going ignored a large portion of the time. Being thrilled by and good at multiple things is confusing and frustrating, sometimes, because the world (mostly) just wants you to pick one.

But I won’t.

I don’t want to!

You can’t make me.

I’ve been saying all of this since high school, so why am I letting music slip bit by bit out of my life? Because it’s expensive? Because it presents a more intense challenge, on top of everything I’m already doing?


When the hell was the last time I backed down from a challenge!?

GEEZE. Now there’s some perspective!

  • pambelding
    Thank you, Thank you, Thank you for sharing your joy and enthusiasm for singing. I watched your video and just had to comment and tell you that you are such a wonderful breath of fresh air! As a matter of fact, I think you're "Pink", which is better described here Thanks for being you! xoxoxoox
  • Paul Durban
    My wife always wanted to be a Broadway star, but alas, it wasn't to be. But the bug to perform has never left her.

    A few years and a child later, she had the opportunity to perform in a fundraiser called, "Dancing with Lincoln's Stars" (She's an anchorwoman). The rehearsal process made her feel so happy! And she won the competition!

    As a performer myself, I get where you're coming from. There's nothing quite like putting yourself out there. It's quite revealing and somewhat cathartic - but always exciting!
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